I finally updated some of this site! This is quite an accomplishment, if I do say so myself.

New stuff:
-- Recipes (I have one up for homemade fruit juice)
-- Layout! Hooray for CSS and pattern maker in Photoshop!
-- I've updated the Links Out to include my friends, Jesse and Erin! About time, geez. I've only known both of them for years.

Updated stuff:
-- Birthday List in the Visitor section.
-- Movies seen and Books read in About Me.

Anyway, I need to keep up with this site more often. I need to remember to check my dang email account connected with this site! I miss tons of affiliate requests, hosting requests (I think anyway, who knows), and interactive site plugs (birthday list, etc). Woops. Sorry guys. I will try to work on checking it more often. Promise!

I've deleted a bunch of obsolete or stupid pages. No one cares. So don't worry about it :)

Not a whole lot to tell. I haven't been doing much lately. I don't work during the week so I sit home, watch tv, read, play the Sims 2, etc. It isn't that excited haha.

I got kicked out of Despair. Whatever. No one commented me anyway, and since the emails stopped coming to me, I forgot to check the site. Sooooo, whatever. Pointless being a member anyway.

I've updated a few pages on the site. Mostly in About Me. I added more books and movies. I don't remember what else, but I didn't add any new pages.

I have a job interview on Friday for a cafe opening on July 14th or so. Hopefully they will hire me... but my hopes aren't too high considering I leave in August to go to school.

I'm feeling better now. No longer sick! I am, however, still not feeling awesome. I started taking medicine for my anxiety and it kills me. I don't really feel nauseous, only slightly and not all the time. It makes me exhausted though and keeps me from sleeping on top of that. Last night I woke up every 2 hours to the tiniest little noises my roommate made and then I felt wide awake, though I knew I was tired. It was the worst. My head feels a little weird, but I'll just have to get used to that. So yeah. Lame.

Site-wise, nothing is really new. Deleted one hostee already as they literally forgot about the site. Awesome. Whatev. And I finally linked the other on the sidebar :) So go check her site out.

I have to make a Walmart run so I better go get ready...

So I've pretty much felt like absolute crap since Saturday afternoon. It's a combination of a lot of things. I might have an infection from a procedure I had done Thursday, though I have yet to go to the doctor. It's a pain to go to the health center as they don't have any of my medical records... so they don't even know anything about my procedure. So I don't know. I was also dumb enough to take my anti-anxiety/anti-depression medicine (well, start it) on Sunday, when I already felt bad... and on an empty stomach. Basically, it left my stomach in even more pain than it was in already, and a lot more nausea. I'll leave the rest to your imagination.

I've had no energy, mostly I assume from getting only 4 hours of sleep a night, and broken up, not straight through. So because of the lack of sleep, my mind is a little fuzzy. I feel slower, and I'm having trouble reading things further away and tend to read them as words that are NOTHING like the actual word (for instance, I read "photo" as "mentor" at a distance I normally could read it). Oh, and, this could also be due to the fact that I'm pretty sure I'm dehydrated.

I've had almost no appetite lately, and whenever I do eat, I can't eat much. And after I do, my stomach hurts. And by hurt I mean a constant vaguely nauseous feeling, plus that burning you feel when you're hungry.. so it feels like hunger pangs, but I have NO desire to eat. In fact, I feel full.

I should probably go get this checked out, but like I said, it's a pain in the ass to do so :/

I'll get back to this site when I'm feeling up to it.

I didn't make any New Year's Resolutions because I think they're dumb; you almost never stick with them so why bother? But I feel like I need some... well, let's call them goals. Goals are more workable. Some of these, I know I won't do, but I want to put it out there so maybe I'll do tiny steps toward it... I don't know.

1. Eat healthier!
    I've already bought some better foods... some juice and fruit. So we'll see if I can stop snacking... which will be hard since my mom just sent me this amazing Valentine's Day care package.

2. Get some exercise!
    I know I won't go to the gym unless I can get someone to go with me, at least for the first time. Ashleigh and I were talking about it Friday night (though, uh, inebriated) and I'm going to try to see if she will go with me... maybe take a class? I'm just so shy and baby-ish that I won't go alone because I'm worried that I will look like an idiot--not that I'm alone, but that I don't know how it all... works or where stuff is. And if not, I'm going to stop relying on the bus and walk damnit!

3. Find new ways to vent my emotions.
    I've been so moody lately and just feel depressed too much. Nothing that's stuck around for more than a few hours, but that's how it starts; soon enough, it'll stick for a few weeks and I'll be back in my depression and I can't handle that. I need to find a way to vent. To use that in a productive way, rather than taking it out on my boyfriend. Maybe I'll take up drawing again... It takes my mind off things and I'm honestly pretty good (not good, mind you, but I have some skill). I would say writing, but I have no good ideas for stories and if I do, I need to do a shit load of research and I have no time for that.

4. Stop procrastinating!
    I have so much work to do in the two weeks before break... I need to start studying or coming up with topics... I also need to work on that damn speech--it's due on the 19th! Shit!!

That's it. But I really do want to take a class at the gym... I don't know. I mean, I'll probably hate it, but the only thing I like at the gym is lifting weights... and well, who would go with me to do that? :|